Wednesday, May 2, 2012

1st of May - the night of Erethism

4 am now... post-Labour's day... manifested with erethism (anxiety, timidity, paranoia, phobia, shyness etc.)


Initially was just planning to let it be an ordinary day, just as usual... (other than have to preparing for the Occupational Health exam later)... Too bad, I'm unable to do so. Someone, somethings were just keeping reminiscent in the mind & heart... 





Woke up at this time, playing this song... 




"BECAUSE I LOVE YOU"


Just want to share it with you...
Dedicated to a person I love(d?)(ing?)





If I got down on my knees and I pleaded with you
If I crossed a million oceans just to be with you
Would you ever let me down?

If I climbed the highest mountain just to hold you tight
If I said that I would love you every single night
Would you ever let me down?

Well I'm sorry if it sounds kinda sad, it's just that
Worried, so worried
That you let me down

[Chorus]
Because I love you, love you
Love you, so don't let me down

If I swam the longest river just to call your name
If I said the way I feel for you would never change
Would you ever fool around

Well I'm sorry if it sounds kinda bad, just that
Worried, 'cause' I'm so worried
That you let me down

[Chorus]
Well I'm sorry if it sounds kinda bad, just that
Worried, 'cause' I'm so worried
That you let me down

1st of May, the Labour's day, it should be our Anniversary... Happy(?) Anniversary :)
(Yea... You probably have forgotten... )


They told me:
-Relationships are like glass, sometimes its better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.
-Life would be much simpler if I didn't care so much.
-Don't keep running back to the one person that you need to walk away from.
-Everyone in life is got to hurt you, you just have to figure out which people are worth the pain.
-Don't waste your life trying to get back what was taken away.
-Being with someone that doesn't treat you right isn't love, it's stupidity.
-Don't make time for people who don't make time for you.
-Staying with someone who doesn't appreciate you isn't loyalty, its stupidity.
-Don't waste so much time and effort on people who didn’t deserve it.
etc.


They're probably true... so true and rational... They asked me to stop... They said it should be an end now... knowing that you're in his arm now...


I know... I know... I know... 


Sigh, truth may not lead us to where we thought we were going, but it will always lead us somewhere better. no struggle no progress? Yes. As if I don't know the pain? LOL... I always believe, believe with my all heart... that I will do what I were made to do...


Forgiveness, as for me, is the final form of love... The way to learn to love, is simply by loving...


Hmmm... The questions are always that complicated but the answers are simple. 


Hello, Mr Yam Yam? LOL... =.= Don't laugh Yam!!!


Stop Yam Yam, Stop...


Back to your study!!!


*p.s. : 
to all my dear friends that are concern and care about me, 
Don't worry, I'm happy and peace now... =) 
I never seeks for happiness, I simply found it... with the inner peace I'm having now. I'm calm, as compared to anytime before this. 


don't need a perfect relationship, I just need someone who won't give up on me...







11 comments:

Anonymous said...

There's nothing left to try. Though it's gonna hurt, there's no other way than to say goodbye.

Anonymous said...

add oil~ anyway, nice song! =)

Anonymous said...

what doesnt kill u made u stronger =))

Anonymous said...

我怎么都觉得你写的东西看了会让人不知觉的把责任是怪在那个女生身上。。
如果你是真心喜欢她
请不要在分手后,还一直旧事重提。。
纯粹个人感想。。
要删要留,悉随尊便 =)

Anonymous said...

Don't trust too much, don't hope too much, and don't love too much.
Because that TOO MUCH can hurt you SO MUCH.


J.Y.

Anonymous said...

聚有时,分有时,来有时,去有时。施主,世事不过过眼云烟,要学会看开,放下。

Yam Yam said...

@Anonymous 1 :
=) Thanks for your advices... I'll let it be, let it be... Something meant to be will mean to be...
ps: haha... btw, you're? Can write short form of your name de... >.<

@Anonymous 2 :
=) Thanks for the visit to my blog... Hope you enjoy the song too~
ps: haha... mind to let me know who you're?

@Anonymous 3 :
=) I will keep improving myself...

@Anonymous 4 :
=) 您错了,没有人要怪谁。我不懂您是怎么诠释,但这些文字本无此意。

您说的分开了,没错。。。但,旧事重提与否,我看了您的评论后,再重新阅读一遍这些在凌晨时辑写的文字(纯粹有感而发的文字,半夜起来在准备考试当儿,即席而写的文字),有提到的所谓旧事,也是5月1号是个对我本身而言深具特别意义的日子而以。。。其他的,大多是我个人的期许/藐念。。。半杯水,有人说其半杯满,有人说起半杯少。。。无论如何,多谢您的评论。。。

ps: 可否署名?>_< 或short form也好。哈哈。。。

@J.Y. :
=) Thank you J.Y. for your comment. It's uncountable thingy, don't have to really measure anyway... for me...

@Anonymous 5 :
=) 受教。区区在下红尘俗人,总难逃七情六欲。该要脱尘总该脱尘,我会精进自己。受教、受教。

Anonymous said...

一言既出,驷马难追。施主切记要精进。可以回头看,但是不要杵在原地不走。往前...往前...该过去的就该过去,还拥有的,将拥有的,好好珍惜。

无名五号

Wei Han said...

lol, 原来同是天涯沦落人.
被爱是幸福的,但爱人也同样幸福.
If you find happiness from loving that person, then carry on;
if sadness and sorrow are the only things you obtain, then it's time to open up yourself and be grateful, at least you had those good memories together. Just another 'truth',easy to say but difficult to do. haha. have a nice day.:)

Anonymous said...

ops, i just saw ur post on today !!! how r u so far after 5 months? i personally believe that if u r still care for the old memory, it is going to tear u apart, perhaps it is a poison that is going to kill u slowly, just let it happened, why dun u just give up and search for new memory and perhaps even better than the old one tat is waiting for u just right in front of you, but u keep on blindly looking back to what had been broken into pieces, time passed and i hope u r healing now and perhaps had completedly healed,

Anonymous said...

炎炎,
一两个月前,订阅了你的面书。好欣赏你的文笔,想交个朋友。发了 friend request, 但没下文。你的面书也没能让人留个讯息。看来你大概只接受认识的人吧。恰巧知道你有这么一个部落格,还好可以留个言。我并非要对你文章中所隐藏的信息议论一番,纯属欣赏你的文采。若有机会,当然希望可以和你交个朋友,聊聊医学的东西,还是什么的。:)
”虽说旁观者清,却并非当局者。虽说感同身受,却并非刻画在自个心上。解铃的不一定是系铃人,或许是那么一位过客,触碰了开关,让你顿悟了从前不了解的。每位走进我们生命里的人,都带着上帝预先安排的一个使命。是什么?珍惜每位出现的人吧。“
~惜缘~