1st of May - the night of Erethism

4 am now... post-Labour's day... manifested with erethism (anxiety, timidity, paranoia, phobia, shyness etc.)


Initially was just planning to let it be an ordinary day, just as usual... (other than have to preparing for the Occupational Health exam later)... Too bad, I'm unable to do so. Someone, somethings were just keeping reminiscent in the mind & heart... 





Woke up at this time, playing this song... 




"BECAUSE I LOVE YOU"


Just want to share it with you...
Dedicated to a person I love(d?)(ing?)

If I got down on my knees and I pleaded with you
If I crossed a million oceans just to be with you
Would you ever let me down?

If I climbed the highest mountain just to hold you tight
If I said that I would love you every single night
Would you ever let me down?

Well I'm sorry if it sounds kinda sad, it's just that
Worried, so worried
That you let me down

[Chorus]
Because I love you, love you
Love you, so don't let me down

If I swam the longest river just to call your name
If I said the way I feel for you would never change
Would you ever fool around

Well I'm sorry if it sounds kinda bad, just that
Worried, 'cause' I'm so worried
That you let me down

[Chorus]
Well I'm sorry if it sounds kinda bad, just that
Worried, 'cause' I'm so worried
That you let me down

1st of May, the Labour's day, it should be our Anniversary... Happy(?) Anniversary :)
(Yea... You probably have forgotten... )


They told me：
-Relationships are like glass, sometimes its better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.
-Life would be much simpler if I didn't care so much.
-Don't keep running back to the one person that you need to walk away from.
-Everyone in life is got to hurt you, you just have to figure out which people are worth the pain.
-Don't waste your life trying to get back what was taken away.
-Being with someone that doesn't treat you right isn't love, it's stupidity.
-Don't make time for people who don't make time for you.
-Staying with someone who doesn't appreciate you isn't loyalty, its stupidity.
-Don't waste so much time and effort on people who didn’t deserve it.
etc.


They're probably true... so true and rational... They asked me to stop... They said it should be an end now... knowing that you're in his arm now...


I know... I know... I know... 


Sigh, truth may not lead us to where we thought we were going, but it will always lead us somewhere better. no struggle no progress? Yes. As if I don't know the pain? LOL... I always believe, believe with my all heart... that I will do what I were made to do...


Forgiveness, as for me, is the final form of love... The way to learn to love, is simply by loving...


Hmmm... The questions are always that complicated but the answers are simple. 


Hello, Mr Yam Yam? LOL... =.= Don't laugh Yam!!!


Stop Yam Yam, Stop...


Back to your study!!!


*p.s. : 
to all my dear friends that are concern and care about me, 
Don't worry, I'm happy and peace now... =) 
I never seeks for happiness, I simply found it... with the inner peace I'm having now. I'm calm, as compared to anytime before this. 


I don't need a perfect relationship, I just need someone who won't give up on me...